Why does the heart always crave for the impossible stuff. Why doesn’t it make choices within the attainable limits, why does it always wish to cross the limits and break the barriers. Without a thought of the consequences or the people around, it just wants to be in the world it loves. The most ludicrous aspect is that the most desirable stuff suddenly appears nugatory when acquired!! Well I guess that is the human tendency to run after the “tough to get” things and then when you get them they get worthless. The whole beauty of the tough thing lies in its being tough!
Now I know that there are some things that can just be your fantasies....not real. You can love something being sure you can’t have it. I know its stupid but I do remember a line which says “dream but never on the condition of fulfilment” coz some things are better untouched as if the touch will depreciate the beauty. Whenever I come across something I desire but cannot acquire I always think that maybe god has something bigger in his mind for me. Something better. I read a quote somewhere, “God says yes and gives you what you want. Sometimes it says no and gives you better and sometimes it says wait and gives you the best”. I have dreamt of so many things so many times and some I eventually forgot while some I made myself forget, coz it is only when the final moment comes, that you actually evaluate the thing not just as a fantasy but from a possession point of view and then only can you value it in true terms. Then you realise whether it actually is worth having or not. If you find something worth having despite its negatives, despite all the problems it can bring along then only you can actually live with it coz “It is easy to fancy but tough to live”. But then it is amazing to see how some fantasies actually spice up your life.
There are times when you know it is all wrong but still it seems so very right. Sometimes you know it is going to hurt you in the end still you are happy to sojourn. This all seems so typically insane...but then who ever promised sanity...!!!! ;)